Community –

Moving around so much lately has me yearning to find “home”.  Talking to people that are new to this community has spurred my thinking about how difficult it is now when we move to find others to just hang out with.  Over and over I hear how neighbors watch other neighbors come home from work, garage doors up then close down only to repeat the next day.  Must be a better way…..  I want a home filled with welcome – a place for any and all to rest and be restored.



Have spent more time trying to design my site – still not pleased but it is doable.  Clean – but pretty boring.  I have a good bit of work to do.

Today has been a reading and thinking day – not much in the way of visual product but good use of time.  Marinating some ideas – it takes a while.

Listening to Shaky Ground

I have spent a good bit of my “unemployment in a real job” time reading, studying and trying to decide what exactly my next move should be.  The book that I am currently reading (“Double Double” by Cameron Herold) gives a suggested list of behavioral traits that an employer should be looking for when interviewing a candidate.  The top traits that the author looks for are:

  • Attainment/focus on goals
  • Introspection
  • Leadership
  • Organizational skills
  • People/interpersonal skills
  • Ability to handle pressure
  • Tenacity
  • Values
  • Ability to handle conflict
  • Emotional Intelligence
  • Precision/attention to detail
  • Problem-solving
  • Technology skills
  • Willingness to take risks

I have always been one to write down my goals and work hard to attain them.  I have allowed the reality of my current situation to throw me onto shaky ground.  It is time now to reassess those old goals, realize that my move here to work as a financial counselor is not going to provide what I had hoped, and move forward in a different direction that will fulfill me both in spirit and as a means to provide for myself financially.  These traits are excellent examples of where I will focus today and redirect myself.  My fiber art is becoming more and more important.  Perhaps, I am finally at a point in my life where I can listen to that now.

Booth #11

I’ve gotten my booth off to a good start.  I am quite happy with how it is turning out.  There are so many things that I want to do but it seems that things take longer than I plan… need to work on that…

I added this dresser last Saturday.  The color is Benjamin Moore’s Morrocan Spice.

These are the paper wreaths that I made.

There are many days that I feel that I’m wasting so much precious time flitting from project to project without completing anything….however I am making some progress.  Sometimes it takes a while to let things gel and so while it may appear that I am “just sitting there” – I am actually thinking through things – designing some things in my head (and talking to myself).  I think that we, as a society are so purpose oriented that we forget how important it is to sometimes just sit and think things through – and not feel guilty about doing so.  For me the goal is to learn “something” every day and to push myself a little bit further in some way  – and sometimes that may be completely invisible to anyone but me.  I have to let go of having a visual “product” at the end of each day – that can be difficult.

Democracy from the Inside Out

I began the week by watching a webcast by Parker Palmer  called “Democracy from the Inside Out”.  The content was excellent, as I expected – a little difficult to stay focused on in parts but I’m glad that I made it all the way through.  The questions, answers and comments portion at the end was very thought provoking.

I need this – the call to to keep my heart supple and open, not to remain brittle and allow myself to bristle and become defensive when someone expresses opinions and beliefs that are completely foreign to me.  I say this as I continue to ache from the conversation that I had with my 81 year old mother yesterday. She stated that she would vote for whomever (whoever?) becomes the Republican candidate regardless of any qualifications –  other than that they were the chosen Republican candidate.  As an independent, I find that an extremely difficult thing to deal with.  As I wrestle with this, I am physically feeling my “bristled” heart.  This is not where I want to be.